I've made a few decisions lately. Trying to keep up at my own self-prescribed pace on top of trying to keep up with everyone else's pace has worn me down as of late. Big time.
I'm sure you can assume I've been busy, judging from the last time I've actually blogged on my site. I know. I tried to sneak these all in without turning on the "FAILURE" light, but it's hard to swing.
One of the most impacting decision I've made of late is to not pursue the RnR half marathon. I'm sure I'll feel a twinge of regret on the day of, when I see so many of my friends post pictures and accolades on their success that day, but I've thought long and I've thought hard, and this is the best decision for me.
Having Jeff and I both train for this was a constant drain on our time over the weekends. With both of us working full time during the week, this cuts in to major KT time. And this mileage is beyond KT's patience level (I can't blame her) to sit in a jogger and amuse herself. Yes, I felt awesome when I completed 7.0 miles (the longest stretch I made), but my day was used up and then it was a "tag you're it" situation with Jeff and I.
Another reason is that, yes, I've enjoyed running, but these long distances - I was not having fun. Aren't I supposed to enjoy myself? The term is relative, I know. No Pain, No Gain, and all that. But I really wasn't enjoying myself. I think my limit is 4.0 miles.
With all this exercise, I was finding excuses to eat whatever it was I wanted. Which, not surprisingly, led to weight gain. Something I have been committed to for the past year since having KT. The goal. MY GOAL is to lose the weight. To focus on my health. That is my marathon. That is my focus. So it's time to refocus on that. And do things the way that was working before.
I still want to run a half marathon one day. But it's not in my cards this year. And I'm okay with that. I feel like my body is at peace with it, and my mind is too.
3 comments:
you do good Colleen!!!!
Didn't you just complete your SECOND TRIATHLON a few weeks ago!!!!
but let me know if you can motivate me to participate in some fun 5K runs this winter :)
awesome post! training is a part time job. way to put the focus back where your want it to be - staying healthy/weight loss. You have come so far, lost so much weight, maintained and do triathlons! Praise yourself, you deserve it:)
I have missed your posts!
And I hope you are letting yourself off the hook about the R&R 1/2 marathon. You amaze me with what you accomplish in a day!
I don't think there will ever be that perfect mom that can do it. We can't. And I like the idea of your personal marathon. What a wonderful way to think about that.
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